Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Touched and moved

I am actually touched by the outpouring of emotion that my recent post elicited in some of you. It makes me realize that while I discuss my husband's frailties and the pleasure I take in playing upon them, I tend to leave my own off of these pages. I have grown in my role as a dominant woman, but I still have my own insecurities with which to deal. In fact, my dominance helps me deal with them in a way I am only starting to understand. I now need my husband's devotion - and it would seem that I need it expressed in ever intensifying acts of submission - just as he needs my authority.

The body worship, the massages, they still occur with the same frequency as they did when I originally started posting. Forgive me that I have not thought it important to continue to right about what is very much habit in our household. I think we need to spend time enjoying these simple and delightful pleasures and focus less on the emotional thunder of our recent adventures.

9 comments:

oldbear said...

Dear Lady Katherine, to some extent it is normal for a Lady not to post her fears on a page like this. In the beginning the group closeness may not exist for such revelations. As things about the Lady's home life are revealed the "juicy details" tend to take precedence over discussions of feelings and insecuritites.

To compound things, the majority of the readers are men, most of whom are, or believe they are, only submissive.Any comments or feedback that occurs comes mostly from them. It will tend to be juicy detail focused/related, and focused on the image of the domme as a superwoman, not a real, complete, person.

Many of these poor souls have no special lady in their life, or cant discuss or live any part of LFA with their wife or GF. They will therefore tend to not appreciate the emotional flow from a Lady to her sub/knight/servant/slave. (I am talking aobut sites in general and all of this may not apply here 100%.)

Yet whenever there is omething "juicy" discussed there are many more responses. In this grater sample you get many more guys actually living through the challenges and rewards of extreme LFA boundaries. These guys (and gals) DO appreciate the emotional struggles and growth or acceptance challenges the couple faces. So when prompted by your good question, you get the emotional/intimate focus of the last 19 repsonses!

Compared to those who have spent years trying to build up their spouse as a special Lady or deal with their own fears/jealousies/insecurities, those unfortunates mentioned above are probably not as interested in the Lady's challenges as she tries to grow as a person and a loving dominant force.

Dear Lady, i am VERY grateful you have made this blog, and I am grateful to all the great posters. Please feel free to share more emotional details and growth issues. I prefer to discuss the emotions as much or more than the juicy details..

ps- I caught your perceptive comment about needing ever intensifying acts of submission. Now, during this period of retro- and intro-spection might it be a good time to look for ways to redirect your mutual search for fulfillment?

Earlier in the blog when you where talking about cucking you or another had mentioned a concern that once it was done, there would be no stronger "Next thrill" left. Please pardon the paraphrase.

Your reply was something like, "I dont see my relationship as linear, and it was great before and would be great without cuckolding." Again pardon the weaknesses of my memory.

I believe there are ways to grow in your power over him and manifest it in stronger and more complete ways. This can be done without excessive reliance on ritual, or automoton-ic response from him to common daily tasks and situations.

I also believe it can be done while increasing his self-esteem and closeness to you. The easy and common way to accelerate the intensity is to increase degradation and diminuation of the sub, but some of the preciousness of free love between equals will ALMOST certainly be lost if that route is followed to its end. Just my tow cents, PEACE and LOVE to ALL fo you! You too lurkers :-)!!

Queen'sKnight1 said...

Bravo MiLady.

MissBonnie said...

Lurker stands... wishes Lady Katherine all the best..and applauds her journey..retreats back to wenst she came *smiles*

oldbear said...

Dear CG, when you start your blog, run it your way. Its her blog to run anyway she ses fit.

It is a blog about her actual marriage, as in something precious forever and ever. Their whole life as an LFA couple. Including the mundane and sentimental. It is not necessarily a soap opera of titilating events where each one is nastier or hotter or more gut-wrenching than the last.

The purpose of the blog can be found in the main page. I believe it mentions something about promoting LFA. Often (usually?)the best way to promote LFA to a nervous newbie Lady is thru the gentler and reserved benefits, not the extreme and soul-baring.

For What Its Worth, OB.

Queen'sKnight1 said...

CG,

It's not your place to tell the Lady what she "needs to do". Your comments would be considered rude no matter to whom they were made. To believers in LFA, they are appalling. The Lady allows any to come here and read, but her target audience is those who believe that it is a Lady's prerogative to do as she chooses, and that men owe to Ladies the greatest of courtesy and respect, regardless of whether any particular Lady is his Domme or not. It is obvious that you are not a follower of that belief. As such, those of us who do follow that belief find your comments to be like those of a young, arrogant, macho, juvenile boy who has no self-control or self-discipline, and who treats women with contempt.

As Old Bear suggests, your own blog space would be a much better forum for you to posit your drivel.

Queen'sKnight1 said...

CG,

Well I am not keeping it to myself. You certainly are not keeping your childish impudent demands to yourself. I don't seem to be the only one to take issue with you here either. You are an obnoxious bore. All that "blah, blah, blah." All of it about you..... you, you, you. LFA is not about a man being engrossed in himself. It is about selfless service to someone else. Get a life.

Queen'sKnight1 said...

(Yawn) Fellow readers, is his tongue still wagging like a dog's tail? Someone please wake me when he's finished.

oldbear said...

Dear CG, tha was a pretty good post, for gosh sakes start your own blog!!!!!!

I for one would gladly consume it!

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